Only 4 days??????

Ok. New contract. First blog:

This ship, carnival imagination, is a beaut. Kind of dated, but still an absolute gem, from the layout to the decor. Mind you, my judgement doesn't mean much because this is only the second ship that I've been on. I know that once I get a little more comfy here- figure out where the funships I'm going, I'll be having a really enjoyable time.

I've only been here hardly 4 days but it feels like I've been here for weeks. Even reading back the beginning of that last sentence in my head blew my mind.. 4 days?????!!? Thats what rehearsals are about. Get as much crammed in as little time as possible. 2 shows worth of material in 4 weeks to be exact. 

My body has been going through an early morning gym sesh followed by hours of choreography and vocal rehearsals into show watch, maybe an hour or 2 of personal practice then bed for 6 hours. But that's just my body. What I've been going through lately, doesn't even compare. The mental and emotional toll that is just beginning is already, for lack of better terms, sucky. I have good times and bad times, standard.. The last two days however... Mind blowing blowing pride to be here, an unshakable confidence from all the support I have back home.. to.. Tears and lots of tears due to physical pain, identity crisis', the earth is moving and I am always hungry!!!

Complaining is boring. Moving on..

On this ship we have what's called towel animal theatre. It's a puppet show. Dats rite, I'm in a puppet show y'all. So we learnt the technique, got to know the characters then did a lot of playing around with the puppets.. Any way long story short, I'm one of the main characters! Bonussss. The frog, ribbit, is pretty dumb- funny dumb. Kind of like my dog, you love him because is so blissfully unaware of how funny he is. Except my dogs dumb AND ugly, this frogs cute. I'll blog about the story line another day..

Really don't have much time to be doing this.. I'm just taking a break from listening to harmonies over and over. 

Last thing.. Something I've learnt..

Don't be phased by people who aren't on your level. Worry about nailing the one you're on, then get in to the next.

Shoutout to the haters ;)

Deuces. 

Realism. A thank you.

So grateful for the support and helpful advice I've received throughout this contract. What I've realized now is it's those "is that ok?" moments that reveal who in your life is honest. Your instincts and feelings never lie, but manipulative people do. Finally feeling confident enough to stand tall and speak up for what I know is right. So thank you. And to the liars and waste yutes who take advantage of my optimism, reconsider. 

Things that make me happy

Found a page in my note book with a scribbled list of "things that make me happy" in green ink. Im certain I wrote this drunk. I'm a philosopher after my second glass.. In no particular order

Dance

Music

Exercise

Chicken

Falafel

Public speaking

Pictures

Social media

The news

Sleep

Jackson

Marijuanna 

Crying

Success

Making out

Goal setting 

Goal reaching

Starbucks

Free wifi

The colour purple

Funny people

Chocolate

Boys

Good looking boys

Pizza

Attention

Compliments

Gossip

Performing

Makeup

Showering 

Losing weight 

DIVAS

Swimming

Toronto 

blue jays

Dance parties in my room

Cosmo

Money

Eye lashes

Compliments

Writing

Pretending to be drake

Dressing up

Shopping

Sunshine

Pineapples

Stretching

Drinking

I didn't write family or friends.. Which I find really bazarre.. There were a few other things but I kept it pg 13 for my people.

Later dayyyzzzzzzz

Update

That awkward moment when you realize the post you wrote last week is missing.. I typed up a pretty damn long update.. Basically summed up October. I was planning on sending it to my fam jam. That didn't happen. Ya. Awkward. And I really don't feel like re writing it buuuuuuut I have a crap load of free time ATM so why nat..

How does wind work? Like, where does the movement start? I don't get it. Speaking of ATM I've paid off my OSAP! Just in time for my 19th birthday (tomorrow). You know what they say... Ain't nothing like paying off a student loan before your legal bday!!!!!! Nobody says that. Is it odd that I hope you're reading this thinking wtf is she drunk which is the perfect Segway for no because I'm not drinking for the rest of my contract!!!!!! .....Slay...... I've almost completely entirely gone insane. I'm proud of myself :) hopefully that explains why I am not excited to see the hunger games sequel and equally unexcited, not sure where I'm going with this. But I do know that I don't know where my doughnut is. *funnel bump*

And that's October in a nutshell

To be continued

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I probably have too much fun decorating the white board outside of my cabin. I bought a boat load of colours to play with which in my opinion has been one of my best investments yet.

If my daily "ah ha!" moments don't end up here, twitter or coming out of my mouth (most likely), then you'll find 'em on ma board. Play on words, crazy fonts, fav quotes, new ways to write "Morgan's cabin", things to draw, patterns, designs.. If this playlist job falls through the cracks I seriously think I have a future in white board design no I don't but moving on yeah over it

HAUS of MorGAGA

We'll.. To be honest it's usually just lady gaga quotes or stupid things like "divas tonight!!!!!!!" 

What ever

Hop off

Xx

I, feel good

ARTPOP is out. 

Let the creativity flow.

I'm not implying this album is at all simple but the phrase "enjoy life's simple pleasures" is relevant in my life right now. New gaga streaming on repeat as I spit out choreo on the breezeway. 

A piece of me I established back home working as a choreographer has come to cruise. This sense of selflessness is a pleasure beyond pizza and peanut m&ms combined. 

And for those who have heard the track, that's what ARTPOP means to me.

I'm focused.

What is up people

Literally had 5 or 6 people come up to me last night saying they read my blog. Hi y'all! And this whole time I thought my posts were going unread. Pretty soon I'm gonna start sub blogging about my co workers and post bios and stuff. But that would be really immature and irresponsible and I'm not gonna say anymore because I might regret it later ;) 

Ha