Update

That awkward moment when you realize the post you wrote last week is missing.. I typed up a pretty damn long update.. Basically summed up October. I was planning on sending it to my fam jam. That didn't happen. Ya. Awkward. And I really don't feel like re writing it buuuuuuut I have a crap load of free time ATM so why nat..

How does wind work? Like, where does the movement start? I don't get it. Speaking of ATM I've paid off my OSAP! Just in time for my 19th birthday (tomorrow). You know what they say... Ain't nothing like paying off a student loan before your legal bday!!!!!! Nobody says that. Is it odd that I hope you're reading this thinking wtf is she drunk which is the perfect Segway for no because I'm not drinking for the rest of my contract!!!!!! .....Slay...... I've almost completely entirely gone insane. I'm proud of myself :) hopefully that explains why I am not excited to see the hunger games sequel and equally unexcited, not sure where I'm going with this. But I do know that I don't know where my doughnut is. *funnel bump*

And that's October in a nutshell

To be continued

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I probably have too much fun decorating the white board outside of my cabin. I bought a boat load of colours to play with which in my opinion has been one of my best investments yet.

If my daily "ah ha!" moments don't end up here, twitter or coming out of my mouth (most likely), then you'll find 'em on ma board. Play on words, crazy fonts, fav quotes, new ways to write "Morgan's cabin", things to draw, patterns, designs.. If this playlist job falls through the cracks I seriously think I have a future in white board design no I don't but moving on yeah over it

HAUS of MorGAGA

We'll.. To be honest it's usually just lady gaga quotes or stupid things like "divas tonight!!!!!!!" 

What ever

Hop off

Xx

I, feel good

ARTPOP is out. 

Let the creativity flow.

I'm not implying this album is at all simple but the phrase "enjoy life's simple pleasures" is relevant in my life right now. New gaga streaming on repeat as I spit out choreo on the breezeway. 

A piece of me I established back home working as a choreographer has come to cruise. This sense of selflessness is a pleasure beyond pizza and peanut m&ms combined. 

And for those who have heard the track, that's what ARTPOP means to me.

I'm focused.

What is up people

Literally had 5 or 6 people come up to me last night saying they read my blog. Hi y'all! And this whole time I thought my posts were going unread. Pretty soon I'm gonna start sub blogging about my co workers and post bios and stuff. But that would be really immature and irresponsible and I'm not gonna say anymore because I might regret it later ;) 

Ha 

#inadrunkenstupor

Ok Toronto 

We need to have a chat

Other then our mayor being on crack, what is gwanin???

Seems like my world is on pause but everything and everyone else is on fast forward. Oh, The shanagains I could be getting into back home right now. From gypsy nights to Halloween regrets.. To binging on turkey what the hell I'm missing thanksgiving and Christmas.. The only times a year we have turkey

K

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LIIIIIIIIIIIKKKKKE

I must say though, when I get home, although I'll be legAl, I'm not sure if I'll be drinking a whole lot. The novelty of being able to drink underage was probably more satisfying then actually getting drunk. And I'm drunk literally 5 times a week here. AND it's dirt cheap here unlike home where I'll probably be paying more money on one night then I do for a week here. A bottle of Pinot Grigio is $7. Ya. A glass at the bar is $7.50. Plus I've made enough memories that I don't remember for a life time. I'm wild. Pulling some next Rob Ford shie up in here. 

But I'm putting this in writing and I hope some of my coworkers see this.. I'm not gonna drink next cruise. All 7 days. Lol. And I was gonna try doing no pizza but IM SO WEAK. I'll try though..

Alright sober for a cruise. Break on 3. 

1

2

3

Break

I'm already drunk .. . .

Cp what

Nothing better then a blast from the past. Found my Cawthra park sweater in my drawer today and just had to put it on, which naturally, led to past blasting. 

There's a lot I can say about this sweater. Probably too much for a sweater. 

If you were a rap student at cp, these sweaters didn't seem like much of an option. Maybe not week one because everyone was wearing there new back to school outfits (miss those), but the shocking amount of people in these awkwardly large navy blue hoodies with " CAWTHRA" on the front and the persons major on the back. I'm pretty sure the most popular topic of conversation in gr 9 was when can we order a sweater, until the order forms for the sweaters came out. 

So we order the sweaters, wear them religiously till the novelty and navy blue fades enough for our topic of conversation switch over to the caf cookies and the struggle of waiting till Friday to have poutine. Winners. That's what we were. 

But in all seriousness, it wasn't bout the sweaters. It was about your major. I remember going out of my way to see someone's back which led to judgement and assumptions almost always before I met them. 

Now that high school literally means nothing in my current life and I'm having so much fun reminiscing, let's address stereotypes. Oh lord okokok 

We had our crazy ass drama majors who usually only associated with each other or the occasional music major. I personally thought they were the best department in the school simply because they were so passionate about the school. They had great personalities and confidence which at the end of the day is more important then how high you can kick your leg, belt or what ever is considered impressive for visual artists. Speaking of art majors.. Where were they and where are they now. Maybe they were hiding from all of us performing artists. I don't blame them. Maybe they were just bitter because "visual arts" was too long for the back of the sweater and "art" kinda looked stupid. Without those sweaters or a obnoxious personality you didn't really get noticed in cp. real talks, I didn't have any VA friends. But I did have music major friends. They were probably to most... Normal. But not really because no one was normal at Cawthra. Hahahahahahahahahaha normal in Cawthra. NOPE. Our music dept was so talented. Get it y'all. And then there were the dance majors. The girls. We ran the world. We definitely got the most attention. Makes sense though, the artistic director of our entire rap program was a dance teacher. And we were hot so

This has been fun. Being on a ship can really mess with you.. Sometimes it's good to drop the ego and remind yourself of how pathetic you used to be, laugh, then go about being your true self. The self you established when you made most of your first mistakes, high school. Loved Cawthra. 

Cp out

Blogging

It's been a really long time since I've taken the time to type long posts about my life like there's people reading them. Sorry to all the people reading these, I've missed you. I'm not gonna update you on the 10 ish cruises that have past since my last post buuut I do wanna address some things about ship life and talk about where my heads at right now.

First thing I need to get off my chest, I've grown an obsession with pizza. 

I spend a lot of time jamming to gaga and getting dressy and drunk. The good life right. But not really. No. Not at all. I'm on a friggan rocky ass boat. With bad food (except for our za) and slow wifi. We all make the best of things, for the most part, but there's a spectrum of ship life morals that are constantly clashing. Takes a lot to be positive when your co workers aren't.. And vice versa. Sometimes being miserable just feels so good. Whether or not you have company. At the end of the day, no matter how shady things have been, there always cheap drinks and free pizza. Hollllllaaaaaa

Ship life truly is like jersey shore level crazy when it comes to drama. Like Roni and Sammi all day. Honestly don't even have the energy to say anything more about the drama. It's just nuts. 

I have to say I've become a lot more comfortable with being here. Its odd because I have never felt so alone in my life but that seems to be my motivation right now. I'm literally not important to anybody on this ship. No best friends, boyfriend, position of authority, nothing about my place here is irreplaceable. I'm here for myself and myself only. Upsetting, yes, but really self empowering. I'm an 18 year old girl from Canada performing on ship. That's pretty impressive. Go me. Hopefully believing in myself will get easier. Praise The Lord for the good people on this ship though. Seriously, bless the hearts of the people who put up with my bs mood swings and cheer lead my ass out of depression at times. Go YOU. 

And I'm still in love with divas.

Till next time. Keep it real people :*

ARTPOP

I'm ready for you